You know, a few months ago, I made a terrible mistake. I realized something, and instead of crushing the thought the moment it came I… I let it hang on, and now I know it to be true. And I’m afraid it’s stuck in my head forever. These are the best days of our lives. It’s a terrible thing to know, but I know it.

I can’t let this go. I can’t let you go. Now, you… you listen to me now. You’re a good person. You’re a good and beautiful person and I won’t let you walk out on me. And I won’t let you say those things - those things about how stupid you are and this and that. I won’t stand for that. You want to be with me… then you be with me. You see?

Ever heard of chaos theory, Ed? It’s a science, tries to determine underlying patterns in chaotic systems like weather, ocean currents, blood flow sort of things. But it turns out that are few things more chaotic than the beat of a human heart. Its beating up, slowing down. Pretty face, flirty stares. It’s always changing on what’s happening to ourselves out there. It’s an erratic son of a bitch. But underneath all of that bump-da-bump mess, there is in fact a pattern, the truth, and it’s love. Most important thing about love is that we choose to give it, and we choose to receive it. Making it the least random act in the entire universe. It transcends blood, it transcends betrayal and all the dirt and makes us human.

It was like being on a fantastic fairground ride, centrifugal forces throwing us wider and wider. But it’s all right, because there’s this brilliant machine at the center that’s going to bring us back down to earth. That was Manchester. That is the Hacienda. Now imagine the machine breaks. For a while, it’s even better, because you’re really flying. But then, you fall, because nobody beats gravity.

Who is deep, & sensitive, & funny. Someone who doesn’t think Ginger Rogers is one of the Spice Girls. Someone who wouldn’t consider going to Florida traveling. Someone who is not afraid of Ethiopian food. Someone who doesn’t think that Truffaut is a kind of mushroom. Someone who will call me an hour after our first date & say, ‘I am crazy about you & I’m counting the minutes until I could see you again!’

I don’t know, I just feel like I should just stop, you know, just stop thinking about it. You know, but I can’t. Maybe I’ve seen too many movies, you know. Love at first sight. What do you think about love at first sight? You think you can love somebody just by looking at them? But the thing is man, it’s like I felt like I knew her. You know. You ever get that feeling?